This is my life; it’s not perfect but it’s mine.

I just returned home (it’s 2am) from a pretty hefty get-out, the motorbike ride home was surprisingly peaceful (especially for a Saturday night) allowing me to concentrate on the wonderful sensation of feeling the wind seep into the cracks of my armor where I haven’t quite done up all of the zips. It was tranquil, and for a good half an hour I got some time with myself, the first time I’ve had to stop thinking and just feel. I arrived home and found that my sister had left the television on, and as I was reaching for the remote control to turn it off, a song came on. Whatever program she was watching several hours before had long finished and what was now on was a comedian called Tim Minchin doing musical comedy and the song was called ‘not perfect’.

I walked through the door and picked up the remote control, and instead of turning the television off, instead of taking off my motorbike clothes I just stood there and listened to a song that summed up everything I had been feeling, as the audience laughed at all of the one liners, I just stood there in amazement at how honest this really is. Below is a link to see the video on YouTube, and I’ve also included the lyrics as they’re beautiful.

This is my Earth
And I live in it
It’s one third dirt
And two thirds water
And it rotates and revolves through space
At rather an impressive pace
And never even messes up my hair
And here’s the really weird thing
The force created by its spin
Is the force that stops the chaos flooding in

This is my Earth
And it’s fine
It’s where I spend the vast majority of my time
It’s not perfect
But it’s mine
It’s not perfect

This is my country
And I live in it
It’s pretty big
And nice to walk on And the bloke who runs my country
Has built a demagoguery
And tought us to be fearful and boring
And the wierdest thing is that he is
Conservative of politics
But really rather radical of eyebrow

This is my country
And it’s fine
It’s where I spend the vast majority of my time
It’s not perfect
But it’s mine
It’s not perfect

This is my house
And I live in it
It’s made of cracks
And photographs
We rent it off a guy who bought it from a guy
Who bought it from a guy
Whose grandad left it to him
And the weirdest thing is that this house
Has locks to keep the baddies out
But they’re mostly used to lock ourselves in

This is my house
And it’s fine
It’s where I spend the vast majority of my time
It’s not perfect
But it’s mine
It’s not perfect
But it’s mine

This is my body
And I live in it
It’s 31
And 6 months old
It’s changed a lot since it was new
It’s done stuff it wasn’t built to do
I often try to fill it up with wine
And the weirdest thing about it is
I spend so much time hating it
But it never says a bad word about me

This is my body
And it’s fine
It’s where I spend the vast majority of my time
It’s not perfect
But it’s mine
It’s not perfect

This is my brain
And I live in it
It’s made of love
And bad song lyrics
It’s tucked away behind my eyes
Where all my screwed up thoughts can hide
Cos God forbid I hurt somebody
And the weirdest thing about a mind
Is that every answer that you find
Is the basis of a brand new cliché

This is my brain
And it’s fine
It’s where I spend the vast majority of my time
It’s not perfect
But it’s mine
It’s not perfect
I’m not quite sure I’ve worked out how to work it
It’s not perfect
But it’s mine

This is my Earth, and It’s fine

Relative Phrog.

And I’m not thinking about that green thing you supposedly can control lights with… I just liked Eyal’s title. Speaking of whom, fish? You’re more like a giant ant in a giant colony… just let me explain.

Wikipedia has this to say about ants: (I didn’t write this one…)

Ants have colonised almost every landmass on Earth. The only places lacking indigenous ants are Antarctica and certain remote or inhospitable islands. Ants thrive in most ecosystems, and may form 15–25% of the terrestrial animal biomass. Their success has been attributed to their social organisation and their ability to modify habitats, tap resources, and defend themselves. Their long co-evolution with other species has led to mimetic, commensal, parasitic, and mutualistic relationships.

If we just replace the word Ant with Eyal and do a bit of paraphrasing, we get this:

Eyal have colonised almost every landmass on Earth. The only places lacking a indigenous Eyal are Antarctica and certain remote or inhospitable islands. Eyal thrive in most ecosystems, and may form 15–25% of the terrestrial population. His success has been attributed to his social organisation and his ability to modify existing in house rigging systems, tap resources from local crews, and direct others. His long co-evolution with other specialists has led to mimetic, commensal, parasitic, and mutualistic relationships.

See, anyone would instantly believe this is you. What I’m trying to say is – you go get ’em bro’!

pusH for Progress

relative fish

Phew…

It has been one hell of a month hasn’t it… and only halfway through! I’ve already directed 2 shows in 2 cities… granted they were both tiny little things but still quite exhausting on top of designing the lighting for a 5 day children’s dance festival (I’m pretty sure that if there is a hell it won’t seem quite so bad after that) I am plain tired…

While being so tired I was thinking about something that one of the actors I was working with in Leeds said to me about the difference of trying to make it in London and trying to make it in the provinces. She asked me why I want to be a small fish in a giant pond when I could be a big fish in a smaller one… And I realised that a line from my favourite movie (Big Fish) answered her quite nicely. “If kept in a small bowl a goldfish will remain small, but if moved into a larger one the goldfish will grow into it”.

The fish in London and in the Provinces are the same size, it’s just the perspective that makes the one in London look smaller, and why would I want to limit myself to only grow into an average sized fish when I could be a whale?

Eyal

It’s still cold. Godamnit.

Outside it feels like winter and spring is still fighting it out over who’s gonna be in control the next few months. I hope for everybodys sake that spring wins. I am so tired of freezing, beeing wet, having snow everywhere… and, oh, did I mention freezing?

I mean, I am good, I take my vitamins, my fish oil pills, I eat healthy and I wear home knitten wollen socks. I do my part. Now it would be great if nature would do it’s part, and keep winter to official winter months, and let spring have it’s way as soon as February ends. But no, somehow, someone didn’t get the memo. At some point, when I can afford it, I am either a) buying a 18k lamp and putting it in a crane outside my window or b) moving to a warmer place in winter. (I will still come back for christmas, as I need to have snow then… ) Yeah, I know, I’m being slightly demanding here now… but seriously, if everyone would just do as I say then we would all live in peace. Really.

And that was my point. Listen to what I am saying. Yes, I’m talking to you. (not you Eyal… (or Georg))

lead, follow or get out of tHe way Please

(and yes, I know how it’s spelt)

Causality Water

So here is another different attempt at something cool… what do we think… better or worse than the first? (again the quality isn’t great (especially of the reflections)

Quiz

OK… so yesterday I watched a TV commercial. It praises a new lipstick. What I found very interesting was, that this lipstick has “multidimensional colour”. And after I stopped laughing about it, I wondered… what the hell is multidimensional colour?

I mean, we work with colour a lot, but that never came up. Maybe Kathy S. just forgot to tell us about it…

But here is your chance to express your opinion about it. What is multidimensional colour? Leave your comment!

fruits of labour

Ok everyone, it’s time to buckle up and be honest with me!

Today I spent slaving over many different designs for imagery for my company, and I think I’ve come up with a sort of title and imagery! it is attached below, there is still alot of work to get the colours right on the red pendulum, but tell me what you think conceptually and if there are any suggestions for improvement… please take note… I have never in my life used any program to edit any images apart from resizing on ms paint and once I burnt an entire image in photoshop before realising it was wwaaaaaay too complicated for me!

I’ve put the image and the text on the same picture just for ease of uploading.