It has been a while since my last post and it has also been a while since any post. What is going on everywhere? Where is everyone and what are we all doing?

I am in Switzerland right now and I might be for longer, I might not be. It all depends. I realised I am not meant to do any more corporate event stuff whatsoever. This is killing me. I cannot believe some people do that all their life. How can you? I cannot think of any moment during the last three years where it was less important what you did with lighting than on all the jobs I was working on during the last days.

Today I was working on an “art” production. Sitting in a room with an orchestra playing all the most incredible combinations of “sounds” for 10 hours didn’t really help to get a better feeling for the job again.

Whatever, corporate events are not alive. They are some silly invention by people who thought it might be good to have some sort of happening for other people who really don’t care. What’s the difference between industry jobs and theatre or music gigs? Well, the latter stuff is something where lighting plays an important role to transport the feeling, the message or at least something for an audience. This audience is there on this gig, performance or whatever for the single purpose of the event itself. Doing corporate jobs means to underline the meeting of people or to shine lights on a stage where somebody presents things nobody is really interested in. And I just think it is silly to work in such a field anymore.

It will be incredibly difficult to find a way to do what I think is good to work on. But for the future it must be either the jobs that I care about or it means doing something completely different. In the end, I am not willing to waste my life on things like that.

So, I am really sorry if this sounds like a rant, but unfortunately this is all I could possibly say at the moment, as there is nothing else happening. I miss Liverpool and the good people we all found there. We had some great ideas there and I think it should be possible to realise some of it. We shall see…

Going to sleep now so that I can be with crazy musicians again tomorrow…